It’s been a few days since you guys heard something from me. Even on Instagram, my feed was pretty quiet – except my story. I have to say I am a bit addicted. But that’s another theme. Today I want to talk about perfection and what’s the problem with it.
Everybody who was on Renegade in the last few weeks had to see something horrible. At first, my old design which I was so dissatisfied with, even if it was brand new. Then you saw a new design but unfinished and warped. After that, you came to the honor to see a completely white screen. You see – my online presence went downhill. But why?
I tell you the short version: The theme which I bought for a lot of money did not want to work together with my blog. And nobody could tell me why. Not the support of the Theme, not the Support of my Webhost and not even the developer I got from the theme support especially for me. Everybody seemed to be clueless and I was so frustrated. I had so many ideas in my head for posts and then this. Going back to the old design wasn’t an option for me. I just wanted to continue blogging, if everything was perfect.
And there it is! This tiny word, which describes something so utopian, we should use it less often. From a friend I had to hear that I make my own life just harder with my compulsion for perfection. But that’s how I’ve always been. If I wanted to do something, then I wanted to do it completely and correct. And correct seems to be perfect. But for my quest for perfection the border of my frustration level is way too low, so I end up in my bed, depressed and I go to sleep early.
After more than 2 weeks I finally made it. A new design is here, my happiness about that seemed to be a euphoric spell and my mood increased in a high which lasted for days. But I realized, that I can’t always wait for everything to be perfect. Sometimes you just have to do it and be patient. Something which is not my strength as well – but nobody is perfect.